Yesterday I started to think about the sort of show, music and oddity I’d like to do with my first true circus show. One completely created by myself with my ideas and outlines.

Since I’m such a Lovecraft fanatic why not use that for the basic idea? Since I’m also a huge fan of ambient, minimal and noise I can slowly build it up throughout the show until at the end the people in the crowd can dance as I switch from my music to DJing other music.

I was talking to Nelly yesterday and she gave me the final idea. I still have that unfinished lsd song that I screwed around with. As the performance goes on it can be inferred that this is really a Lovecraftian acid trip gone very bad. You can watch as the main “character” goes from the start of hell to the point that they understand that nothing is really real and need to start enjoying themselves.

So far it’s just in the basics stage and I really need to start writing the full ideas out along with a time line to see how much music I need to write and the sort of weird shit the performers can do along with it. I also need to reread a bunch of Lovecraft to brush up on the whole mythos and the sensations I wish convey.

I’ve been here for a few days now. The holiday is finally over so now I can take care of everything that really needs to be taken care of. Everything being closed yesterday was a huge pain in the ass but at least the fruit stands were open and I got two pounds of awesome nectarines for 99 cents.

Once 9am hits everything I need to be open will be. Post office, bank, hard ware store and I’m sure there will be more to do.

Living back in the barrio is great. This is definitely a poorer working class hood. Everyone I’ve run into has been very nice and friendly. There’s a very odd thing about here. You can walk down a block and see some really well taken care of properties then just an abandoned one that is falling apart in the middle of where you wouldn’t think to see it.

Just like my move to San Francisco pretty much started in a warehouse and living with a clown the same situation is happening here. My new spot is a warehouse space but so much nicer than 212 Clara. I’m also living with the same clown. Everything in the place is slowly coming together and I’m sure in a few months this will be a very sweet spot to live inside.

Wanted to write this before I forgot to do anything. The drive down to San Diego went great. Not to much traffic so it took a little less than 9 hours. That’s a fucking miracle unless you drive at night.

So now I have finally seen my new place and got my room. It’s a little smaller than my old bed room but I want to take over the small room across the hall as my office and studio. It will be nice not having a desktop computer in the same room as I sleep in for the first time in what seems like forever. Just a room to relax in and be able to sleep with no annoyances. Will have to get media streaming to the iPad to go to sleep to though.

I am very surprised with Daffy already she knows where home is and likes running around the small yard and deck we have. I’m sure she will take some time to adjust but now she knows I wasn’t going to leave here with all the packing I was doing.

I’m living in Logan Heights, very close to Techno Mania Circus. Took Daffy out for about an hour and halfnwalk through the neighborhood and didn’t see too many gang signs. Just some for the crips and some gang called the assassins. I felt safe when I was sleeping in a giant UFO in a front yard in this neighborhood and now I have a fenced in area that would be a bitch to climb over.

All in all it seems like this was definitely the right move for me. I already feel better? I love that this place reminds me of the ware house I used to live in a few years back in San Francisco it has a nice feel to it. If all goes well I’ll be able to post this as soon as I can find some free wifi.

And here we go to see if this was a bad or great idea.

I’m making some pretty big life changes right now.  I’ve realized that I have quite a few problems yet again and I need to get them sorted out before I do something really fucking stupid.  I’m sure it would be epic stupidity considering how I feel right now.

Right now I feel as I did before I move out west from Washington DC.  That is just being pure miserable, annoyed at everything and just all around depressed.  All of these things lead to me being self destructive and it just gets worse as time goes on.  I started thinking about this several months ago.  I’ve been seeing a doctor for personal reasons to try to get some of my problems sorted out and haven’t really been able to find the right solution to the issue at hand.

While it may sound crazy but San Diego is going to become what San Francisco was supposed to become.  This is my new Mecca.  Where things can change for me.  Obviously that failed the first time around but I fell into some pretty shitty situations once I got here.  Those just compounded onto the partying and one thing lead to another to where I’m at now.

Very recently things just fell into place almost perfectly for me.  A clown friend, from when I lived in the ware house, moved back to San Diego from Tennessee and needed a place.  I need to clear my head and change how I actually live my life.  Living with him is always awesome and good times.  We mesh very well on a lot of topics.  So I made a list of reasons why this is what I need to get my head straightened out and my body sobered up.

• More out doors
• Performing again
• Having a garden
• Hunting
• Hiking
• Camping
• Being able to do more DIY projects
• Warmer weather

These are really just the basics.  I said to someone the other day while dealing with all of this that “I need to put the farm back in the boy.”  Yes I always claim to be white trash and I did grow up on farms.  Getting back down to some basics, but still having the urban environment that I crave, will be exactly what needs to be ordered and served.  The only person who can do this is me.

It’s going to be weird like when I moved here that I won’t have Internet access at home.  I think this is a wonderful thing as it will make me start to do more, motivate me to stop wasting so much time.  I’m sure my phone will go off with meebo and texts and phone calls, but that’s easy enough to leave in my bedroom while I work outside.  I can also take my iPad with me to get a cup of coffee in the mornings and get my news that way.  Just like I did on my first major move in my life.

I could have always gone back home to Virginia but why would I move backwards?  I know I could rely on my sister to give me a hand, a couch to crash on, or even food.  That’s just not how I am though I need to continue to move forward.  I need to achieve my life’s goals and I need to do it while I’m happy not pissed off all the time.

• Five days and I’ll be somewhere warmer, cleaning up my act. #

• i’m king of the alaska mountains #
• @imacolata you’re just white. in reply to imacolata #

• 7 miles on the indoor bike at hard level. Not too bad. #
• says http://tinyurl.com/368ybbs http://plurk.com/p/5nn3r2 #
• Note to self. Clip daffy’s dew claws as well as her normal claws. #
• Now this explains the gulf of mexico perfectly http://bit.ly/b44DRS #
• iphone vs android. Beatport has an app on iphone, not android. Another one in that bucket. #
• Crazy way to eat for a month on $1.00 a day. Very creative. http://bit.ly/aeGlmC #
• it only works on ogres, that’s why it’s called the sword of ogre decapitation. #

• ya ya ya, it’s only 5am in HK right now. Or maybe I’m doing the math wrong. Fuck I’m tired. #
• I learned a travel agency is the best way to travel. Those fuckers can get you out of anything. #

• Fuck you book publishers. If ebooks were cheaper they would be more popular and sell a lot more. #
• ielectribe for the ipad is a lot of fun. I can lose hours with this application. #
• @ableton Is there anything in the works for a stripped down, yet useful, version of your software for the ipad or iphone? #
• @jasonaaron my first wrist tattoo was an elder sign. Somewhat similar. in reply to jasonaaron #
• @pcsathy Yet you have no Sam Jackson, so that’s no fun. Does that snake have a diamond shaped head? Then it would be venomous. in reply to pcsathy #
• @ableton Not really looking for a controller, but rather something more self sustaining. I already have a livid instrument block that works in reply to ableton #
• @snoopdogg What do you think of the cover of “Gin and Juice” by The Gourds? in reply to snoopdogg #
• Slash, plus fergie and cyprus hill doing paradise city is fucking bad ass. I fucking love when metal comes out awesome. #
• Why is it that Fergie sings “Paradise City” better than Axl? Oh I know why because GnR is Slash. #
• Once bitten #
• I’m a 30 year old man. I just bought hair clips for myself for the first time. FML. #
• 13, 21. #
• @TomBrevoort congrats. Make sure she’s a comic fan growing up. in reply to TomBrevoort #
• Good Morning Magpie is a bad ass album. Thank you Murder by Death. #
• “it don’t matter where I been. I’m coming home.” #

So now I have a device to read comics and books digitally. The last part of physical media is gone in my life. mp3 took care of music, various codecs and services took care of television and film. I can get a comic for $0.99 through and app on my iPad but I gotta pay 15 bucks for a book.

From reading through a google search it seems that our publishing industry isn’t ready to truly embrace the digital revolution. Selling cheap as readers become common place will only increase sales.

They are lucky since piracy hasn’t taken off with their medium. If publishing doesn’t get their shit in gear they’re gonna get fucked in the ass they way the RIAA and MPAA did when it beca,e easy to rip a disc.